Unsent letter to a TRUE FRIEND

     Do you have that one person in your life who had always been your "true friend".The one who never back stabbed you.The one with whom you have those in numerous meaningless and lame talks.The one you cant go a day with out talking.The one who does not show he/she really cares for you but makes you feel it.The one who keeps mocking you with those silly names.The one who keeps reminding you all the time that you are younger than him just to annoy you :P The one whose silliest joke can bring a smile on your face.The one whom you can actually fight with like you do it with your sibling.The one who ll never let you down.The one who wastes his rc just to give you advices.The one who knows your flaws and your positive shades too.The one who'll share their problems with you without hesitating that you would let others know about it.In other words trusts you blindly.The one who acts like he's a complete geekiest and doesn't care about any darn thing but is emotional than anyone else.The one with whom you can act completely kiddish and at the same time completely mature with.The one whose play list is exactly similar to that of yours and often ends up blaming you that you 're the one who stole his phone .The one who gives you the feeling that you 've known each other forever.The one who would read this and feel did she really write this for me :)) And yeah the one who keeps it drama free.The one to whom I hate admitting all this stuff  about cos we never act so lovey dovey :P

 Well now that I 've admitted all this I ll certainly accept the fact that I do have one such friend.[Yeah Abhinav Balwa you're one].And all these qualities in him makes him different from the rest.We don't go on and on like we love each other or we care for each other a lot.But I 'm sure deep down both of us know all this.Some of our lame talks go on like this.

^^That's my fav pic of yours now.And my editing makes it look more good ACCEPT IT.

He : Morni :D
Me :Night [cos its night at my place when its morning over his]
He : Duh I was talking about female peacock.
Me :How can you be so lame?
He :Certainly not more than you.
Me :Admit it you 're the lamest.

He :Work chor.
Me :Tu hoga chor -____-
He :Chal chal kaam kar jab dheko subah shaam fb .
Me :Chal na you 're jobless anyway.
 

Me :See you 're able to edit pics so well just 'cos of me.
He :Credit ki bhukki
Me :Doob mar

He:Swimming aati hai.

Me :Ocean main dooba dungi
He :Ocean bhi Indian hai. It'll favor me. Indian ocean. Not Canadian. :-P:-P
Me :Lame joke chup ho jaa.

     And so now this being your 18th Birthday.I would just like to tell you.Have fun enjoy it to the core and I feel blessed to have you in my life.And I love the fact that you come online especially for me and don't talk much to others cos I just don't want anyone else to realise how amazing you are.Okay I admit that's too much now :P And I wont give you advices like don't change and crap cos I know you wont and even if you want to change I wont allow you to.And here goes one such rare moment where in I want to also tell you "You really mean a lot to me and I love you for everything ".And I want you to be happy no matter what cos you 've had enough of everything [you know what I mean :P ]


P.S :You 're the only person who feel my Hindi is cute :D Yes yes I had to mention that :P
2.Take an oath that from this birthday you wont call me chotu,kurti,matki,chutki.But I ll call you Halwa,Jalwa :D Cos I love calling you with those names.And Stop saying I 'm jealous all the time.I 'm purely NOT.

          

Why ME ??

 Allrite as soon as you guys read the title.I am sure 99.9   % of the people [Though so many people dont read my blog] :P would 've definitely thought that it should n't be why me and its gotto be try me?But letme tell you I 've tried enough each and every time but end up asking the same question to myself and i.e why me.I know I should use more of punctuations but kindly ignore it cos I 'm in no mood to correct anything.

            So the point is how suddenly somebody you 've been friends with since ages can start blaming you and just cant take a joke like a joke.And ruin everything just cos of a silly joke.C'mon we arent kids anymore GROW UP FFS.If you 're egoistical enough to let somebody go even after they apologise then let me tell you its your bloody fault and not the other person's cos they atleast made an attempt to sort out things unlike you.And their apology is just cos they value the relationship more than the silliest fight.But its true you should never apologise when you 're not wrong cos few egoistical people might take advantage of it.So first time I learned a lesson NEVER APOLOGISE FOR BEING REAL.No matter how important the other person might be in your life.Anyway we have had enough of this shit the truth is NobodyReallyCares.

Sometimes  I wish people never took me for granted.Darn why me????????   Anyway for whomever this might concern I just want to tell you I 've tried each and every means to sort out things & always been there for you.Even though you dont consider me to be your friend now.So its just gotto be a final good bye buddy :) Sometimes its better to leave the broken pieces the way they 're than to try to fix them back and hurt yourself.           
            Today I don't feel like doing anything.I just want to have some peace of mind and enjoy my last Day in Toronto.Don't feel like talking to anyone.Isnt it ironical how one silly issue can spoil your good day. :(

   

A little bit stronger

So today is one such unusual day when I'm really happy and updating my blog.Cos I often somehow end up updating my blog when I'm sad.Anyway I didn't sleep the whole night cos I dont really know.Insomnia is taking over me these days.Then something that made my day awesome today  was talking to my best friends Suja and Akhil after a really really long time.Yes no matter how serious life gets we constantly need the ones with whom we can act completely stupid with and I love them both for this.Then as usual talked to Samrith.Calling him with his actual name really makes me feel weird cos I 'm so used to mock him with freaking annoying names.Today something just made me realise that I 'm actually so content with my family and friends that even when somebody new enters into my life I feel they just dont fit in cos I feel I already 've awesome people in my life.I know this is wrong and I 'm working to change this attitude of mine.

                        

                                 

                                 And then I went on a walk with my brother not cos I need to loose my weight but cos I was bored and I love long walks.Might be I would end up my day giving a party to my friends cos they have been nagging from many days that I never gave them a treat on my result.I 've been just thinking how different my life would be from next week.Will I be able to make some good friends cos I swear making new friends had never been easy for me but somehow I end up making good friends?Will I get adapted to that city?Will I be able to stay happily without my family .I dont really think so cos I never faced such situation in my life.Anyway I 'm just keeping my fingers crossed and I hope everything goes well and  all that I know is I need to get used to all these changes now.Anyway sayonara cos my starbucks vanilla double shot is waiting for me right now :)

Unsent letter to soul sister

 Kishu,

Well to start off it all started with a friend request on orkut :D Yeah as usual I saw some of your post in 1993 and I sent you a request.Initially I would feel omg this girl is so full of attitude and I dont know from where on earth I got this feeling  which makes me laugh now.But soon I realised that my first impression about her was wrong.We became really good friends then with time.The duration of our chats only increased from minutes to long lasting hours.

          I still remember how we used to stalk Jallu [only she can understand who it is] And OMG those awesome conferences which me you and Tanmay used to have are unforgettable.And how could I forget the epic swayamvara .I ll never forgive you and your ex husband for the way you betrayed us i.e me and Samrithwa:)) And how we used to keep talking about our guys and start cussing them when we are all out of love or about to break up :P Its true boy friends leave soul sisters dont ;)

 Yay cos I edited this pic of yours :P

             There used to be a time when we would continuously chat even for about 7-8 hours i.e non stop and I wonder what we would talk so much about.In short we 've shared our moments of happiness,sadness,funtimes,turned our sadness to happiness many a times in our lives.                                                                     

  We have had our ups and downs misunderstandings,fights,the not talking to each other part to for few days.But all this has just brought us closer.I just want to tell you I dont want to get you influenced by anything in the world.I want you just the way you are and how you have always been.Cos thats what makes you awesome.And kindly screw my means or ways of expressing things and my grammar too :D The only thing  I want to let you know is I love you and when I look back ages from now I still want the both of 'US' to remain the same :D That is K SISTERS now and forever.The credit for the name goes to Sona :)

A Sad Day with Happy Ending

• So I decided to update this blog more often 'cos I am stuck up with this boredom syndrome and yes because I love my blog atleast it does n't have any complains against me and puts on with me inspite of all the irrelevant shit I fill up here.Yeah sometimes talking to yourself makes you feel better.But dont do that often otherwise people might think you are on crack.

• Wanted to talk to Balwa but I could not.I can talk out like  about anything with him but I did not want to make him feel more sick.Had a talk with Kishu then felt good.Then had a chat with somebody which made me remember things which I did not want to about my past.Started mocking Sam then with the stupid fights we usually have.Atleast that made me feel better:)
• Joined TWITTER cos I wanted to do something new and cos of Dip.
• I had to go to Kingston today morning but this shitty weather screwed everything up.I absolutely hate it when I have to go out and it starts raining holycrap.
• Had an arguement with Dad.Sucks when he fails to understand me.I feel like I am the one who keeps thinking about everyone else all the time and nobody gives shit about me.Not that it bothers me but maybe it does sometimes.
• To add to all these I am officially sick I have been coughing like a hyena and got my leg sprained cant even move it now darn thing.
• To avoid all this I decided to attend the summer classes in my Uni from 13th so that I could stay away  from many things in my life for a good reason.
• Met Adil bhaiya today after a long time I havent seen him in more than a month after I left to NYC.He somehow realised I was in one of those weird moods and was making up silly jokes to make me laugh.Then he made me this vegetable Raita sort of thing and it was amazing.
• I miss my Habibi [DHRUV]
• Just when I felt everything is falling to dust somebody told me "A lifetime isn't enough to love you" and that actually made my day.I know its only YOU that can get me through anything and everything :) 

P.S :-Did I just mention in my previous post that I ll stop nagging but I never stand by what I say .So here I go again :P

To Subiya Irfan,

To Ammi jaan,
                          I know I should have like updated this ages ago and I have made you wait enough.But you know how lazy I am at times or most of the time I can say .Anyway sorry for the delay.
                 Well to start it off I gotto know you through Dip dada.And I never knew we would get so close cos you seemed to be equally reserved like me.Yes that was my first impression about you.But you seemed very unique to me in every sense right from what you wanted to become i.e your goal to your complete personality .Kindly ignore the grammatical errors I know you are good at pointing them out lol :)) Anyway jokes apart you have always supported me in everything I did till date.Always stood up for me when people annoyed me or tried to make me happy with your silly jokes whenever I was in a bad mood.

                   I still remember the day when I was having an arguement with someone about things which I should n't  supposedly have and the one where I would end up hurting myself if I got deep into that shit.You tried all means to cut it off that really showed me how much you care for me.I still remember our baigan talks lol.I wonder if anyone would make the vegetable feel so important like we do though we hate it from the bottom of our hearts :P And I lorveeeeee how you kind of pamper me by singing *chanda hai tu mera suraj hai tu*.Lol trust me nobody ever does such things for me [Dada is an exception :P] I love how we can have never ending conversations about anything in the world like absolutely anything.I love how you defend me even at times when we both know I am not right.I love the way you love me.

                 The way you make me feel special.Yes the way you keep saying you can be happy if I am happy .Oh yes I love editing your pictures you should click them more often.I love your taste in music.They say when times get rough you get to know who your real friends are.And I would definitely count you in that. I love those late night talli conversations .No one can act crazy like you do and we can be the craziest when we are together .Its not really been that long that we have known each other but you have known me really well in this short period of time which rarely happens :P.Cos there are friends whom I 've known since ages and they haven't got a clue about me neither do I know anything great about them.So I believe the bond that we share is something special something which I dont share with anyone else.I hope this remains the same forever and thanks for the unconditional love and care you have given me.And I love you with all my heart <3 Friends forever.
        And I hope you remember this picture our remembrance to some night.And and I hope you ll take me to that Chinchpokli Bunder when I visit Mumbai the next time :D

P.S :-No no she doesnt love Suresh Raina at all she meant [raina in hindi = night]

With loads of love,
Your daughter baigan [lol] :P