MIXED EMOTIONS

                                            LUCK FACTOR

Seems like my luck factor is on an upswing these days I feel this especially after my results were out.I got a freaking triple A and I am really happy about it.The first person that stuck my mind as soon as I saw the result was Akhil cos he was the one who said I would get an A for sure.I am glad that I 've people in my life who believe in me more than I do and sometimes thats what keeps you moving on from breaking down.That reminds me of some phrase which somebody special usually keeps telling whenever I feel low or underestimate myself.

"You should believe in YOURSELF just half as much as I believe in YOU".

Its because of this belief of somebody I did well than whatever I expected =)

      The day April 18th was hectic cos I dint know whether be happy about the result or sad cos I would depart from my city in a few moments from then.Moreover how can I forget it was Polo's birthday too that day.

                   

                                 MISUNDERSTANDINGS

Just when I get out of the school after getting to know my grades I see Akki right there.I thought he must be there to drop off the con law book about which he had been telling me since ages but never did it.After all he is a lazy son of gun just like me .We saw each other but never started greeting each other with the random insults which we usually do.I wanted to talk to him real bad cos I havent spoken to him since the day we fought I wanted to clear out things and be like how WE used to be.But BOOOOOOOOOOOOM my inner conscience started screaming "Why are you the one who always have to compromise.Why cant he do it just for once.Ignore him if he doesn't make the effort to make things right" and as usual I listened to it which I dint have to and though I know I was being egoistical moved the hell out of there.I could see the sadness and obliviousness in his face but still I never cared to say a BYE too.Grr why am I so mean.

                               HAPPINESS

Then I reached home informed my dad and brother about the result thingy.Dad was happy and proud for the first time in my life I did n't have to listen to that long lecture which I am usually compelled too.Felt good infact proud about myself and the feeling is pricelss.And as usual my evlish brother started teasing me saying there must prolly be one reason this might have happened perhaps the examiner was blind or it never really happened .Darn why are siblings so freaking annoying all the time?Especially the ELDER ones they are dominating and can never accept their defeat.No offense to any elder sibling in anyone's  family reading this though :P

                              Bye-Bye Toronto

And like we had to we moved on to the air port by 5 20.WE DID The hardest thing about departing from your city is leaving your people behind.I wish I could carry all off my friends in my suit case if I could.But that cant happen so I had to leave after saying good bye to Heen and Aniket.Though its been more than 2 weeks I still miss you Toronto.And all I want right now is get back to my home sweet home =)

Frustrated life

• Lately there have been many complications in my life and the only reason I dont share them with anyone is half of them would not even understand them and the rest half would make fun of them so I dont want to end up making a fool out of myself.
• Seems like misunderstandings with a really good friend are constantly increasing.If we want to fight with someone we can find million reasons to do so but we only need one reason to avoid that fight from breaking the bond.But people change and so does feelings fade away.
• I have noticed that I am losing my patience for the silliest things in the world though I dont care a darn about them.Or rather I am getting more of self centred I hardly know.
• To add to all these I have to pack up my bags and leave tomorrow which means staying away from someone for a complete month I know others might find it silly or stupid or dumb or whatever it is but its really hard for me.
• They say when life gets frustrated go to your happy place but I never found such happy place in my whole life.
• All I want is a place where I can stay with people without any chaos , misunderstandings and maybe the ones who can understand me and stop judging me.
• Sometimes I miss somebody I wish she still existed in my life.I feel how different my life would be then maybe I could share everything with her.Maybe life would not be so complicated then.Maybe I would never feel lonesome like I am feeling today.But then all my thoughts clash down that cant happen that ll never happen this is the way my life is now and its gotto be this way.
• Sometimes I feel people have started taking me for granted .I feel like I am being forgotten.
• At the same time I feel blessed to have few people in my life so God made up a compensation out there by gifting me such people who try to make me happy by the little things they do.They mean a lot to me.
• I know I should stop complaining lately about the things around me and start cherishing every moment of it anyway.
• Never mind I keep getting these attacks and fluctuations in my mind now and then so its not a big deal thats how I convince myself these days.

Hugs

Yeah its all about hugs and yes when I say H-U-G it means a fully whole hearted one not the one armed or half hearted ones.I am sure there will be moments in every one's lives where all you need is a hug.Be it sad be it happiness all of them can be tackled only when you have someone to share them with and the best part about hugs is they can be treasured by  many things left unsaid but felt.When you are overwhelmed with happiness rather than screaming or smiling to yourself hugging someone is the worlds best feeling.Did you ever hug a completely unknown person but never got a strange feeling after that?Yes hug has that tendency to make a completely unknown person give you a friendly touch too.There is no remedy for sadness but no wonder a hug has the best consoling  power.It makes you feel even when you fall or disheartened or sadness someone is always there to take care of you.Its true that when you are sad and someone hugs you that makes you cry more but the best part is  at least you start feeling light-hearted after that.I don't really remember when was my first hug and stuff like that.But the hug which I can never forget would be the one when my brother was leaving to boarding school for the first time.Though he could n't stay their later for some reasons but it was one such moment which made me feel what we mean to each other in spite of the sibling rivalry we have.Sometimes telling someone how much you love them maybe cant exactly give them that contentment but a loving hug can say it all.The hug that a mom gives her child when the baby first opens her eyes,the hug that a friend gives saying everything 'll just be okay,the hug which a dad gives when his heart is filled with pride,the passionate hug from someone special have the capability to melt any one's heart.Some feelings can never be explained enough such is the feeling of a warm and loving hug.A hug will never let you down so feel free and say free hugs all the way.

INDIYEAAH

• Allrite I am freaking out with happiness right now as India won the World Cup after 28 long years.I  always  wanted to treasure this moment and now that its here it bring tears of happiness to my eyes.
• I dont even remember the last time when I was this happy.Thanks India we all love you truely.
• I dont care a darn about the Poonam's commitment or anything else but all I can sense everywhere around is happiness and victory.
• I feel proud to be Indian today.Thanks to the Indian Cricket Team for making billions of hearts happy and filling them with pride I bet nothing in this world can dominate this feeling or take over this.
• I almost lost my voice because of screaming and cheering and I dont even care a darn about it.All I know is I am the happiest soul on this planet right now.
• I wish I could go out and join the people dancing to the beats of Dhol but no I wont do it :P
• My hearty congratulations to all those INDIANS who had been praying and striving for this.This is our moment so lets make the most of it.
• Now thats INDI-YEAH.

Life's like this

So there are quite many  changes I 've been experiencing in my life from the last time I blogged.

• I always wanted to get rid of these 12th boards but now that I am done with them it makes me more sick  now what .I haven't got a clue which direction I should choose whether to take the easy out or risk everything for something about which I am not even confident.
• Oh yeah the most happiest thing in my life now.I am not jobless anymore though I know its not the work I ever wanted to do but atleast something is better than NOTHING.
• I miss the way how my day usually used to start with my Dad's complaint box "Hopeless kid go to sleep.Eat properly,ETC".Darn I miss him.
• I found a new guest at my work place.Dogs are the most loving and faithful living beings anyday.Atleast they dont come with terms and conditions like human beings.
• I can never get over human psychology.The last few days ve been a struggle cos I wasn't able to figure out  something.Isn't it ironic  how the  person  who made everlasting promises to never leave your side could block you out of their life .
• I wish blocking people from life would be as easy as blocking them from your friends list in social networking sites.
• Sometimes I feel like life would have been more easy if I never came across few people.But nevertheless you cant go back and change the past,people change so does life all you got to do is move on.
• Because only then you realise that life isn't always about regrets,sorrows there are many more things worth the struggle which makes it more beautiful.
• I am somehow scared  to get emotionally attached to people easily these days.But I thank God for giving me the strength and  keeping me  going through all such hurdles in my life and saving the best for me.
• Sometimes I feel like half of my life has been wasted in pleasing everyone and making others happy.But now I want to change this quality of mine for good.The bottom line would be its okay with me if I dont become the reason for someone's happiness but atleast I should n't be the reason for their sorrow.

Totally in love with life.

• The very start of this week had been pretty amazing.Just some random stuff which I ve been through this weekend.
• Sometimes staying away makes you realise how much people value you and how miserable life can be without few special people.
• Special moments cannot be confined to any particular day even a tiring day with few happy moments can turn out to be very special.
• The ones who come with terms and conditions sure have an expiry date.
• Breaking somebody's trust is very easy.But regaining it is IMPOSSIBLE.
• Last year this very Valentines I was immature enough to loose him but this year  I am thankful to God that I have somebody like him in my life.
• The only special part about this Valentines day was that you were with me and that completely made my day .
• Tommorow is a big day for two reasons.
• 1.My 2nd sem is gonna begin from tommorow.
• 2.My Best Friend's bday.
• I just want to let her know that though I am not with her all the time but still 'You aren't alone and I love you the most anyday.I am thankful to God for having somebody like you in my life'

Welcome 2011

Well so 2011 had just begun and the very start of this year had been pretty good for me.Few most amazing things that this year's very start made me realise.

• No matter how much we fight with few people we can never give up on them.
• Finally my best friend is happy saw her smiling after a long time and trust me thats the most awesomest feeling ever.
• Differences between me and a really good friend of mine reduced realised people who can hurt you to the extremes can also be the reason for your happiness. 
• When you get addicted to somebody its irresistable to stay without them even for a day and that phase sucks completely.
• But as soon as you see that person after this phase of separation it feels so surreal and you realise that all the time you ve been waiting is worth it.
• Often people who tend to appear strong are the ones who are deep down hurt but still dont reveal anything to anybody just cos they dont want to be the reason of someone's sadness.Completely appreciate that effort one needs enough strength to control themselves from being fragile.
• Most of us tend to ignore things which are right in front of us and keep searching for something that doesn't even exist.Realised if you love something you sh'd love it the way it is including the changes and imperfections.
• No relationship is perfect or flawless.But that effort to even take the imperfections in the right way is worth the love.
• Most of the time in life's race we dont know what we are searching for but end up with something which is meant to be .Learn appreciating such differences in life.
• Not to forget I am thankful to God for everything.For the love,the people,friends,family that he has given me.
• I wouldn't have stood anywhere without them all.Thanks for such a precious life =)