Another year of my life

So another year of my life just passes by.This year had been pretty amazing and transforming in my case.Realised many things in life.Well letme start off with things that remained constant along this whole year.Everything is just random.

• I still get excited for my friends birthdays.
• Azan and me are still jobless freaks.
• Suja is still my best friend.
• I still share all my problems only with D2
• Jeff still loves choclates more than me.
• My brother is still stupid and I am his biggest alarm during mornings.
• Abbu is still the best.
• History classes are still boring and sleepy.
• Akarsh 'd have been paid off good if he was in a joker in a circus rather than using his skills in front of us.
• I still love irritating Abhi.

Things that changed

• I can live without internet.
• Learned to be rude and strong for good.
• Virtual relationships suck big time lost complete belief on them cos of few experiences.
• Doesn't trust anyone easily now.
• People who make hell lot of promises are the one's who are gonna ditch you when you need them the most then all one needs to do is stand up for yourself cos no one else will help you at that point of time.
• Stopped giving a darn to the one's who talk behind her doesnt affect me anymore.
• Cant live without my guy though initially I agree my feelings for him weren't that strong but my love for him has increased with time and he is my basic necessity for existence now.
• Doesnt get emotionally attached to people easily now.
•  Is more confident now than earlier.
• Some people  dont even deserve your attention so started ignoring them.  

                                      Bye bye 2010 :)

I MISS everything

Never ever thought I could miss you so much but yes I am admitting it ;I miss you more than anything and everything at present.

I miss you almost every second.Each and everything reminds me of you.

I miss the way how my day starts with your good morning and you getting annoyed cos I didn't sleep enough.

I miss the way you keep irritating me with those stupid nick names.

I miss the way you smile when you look at me.

I miss the way you say  I am running out of tissues when I am nervous.

I miss the way you tell me your make up will get spoiled if you cry.

I miss the way you defend me stand for me .

I miss the way you dont allow me to stay up late and get pissed when I say I am not sleepy.

I miss those hugs that melts away the sadness from me .

I miss your crazy talks.

I miss the way you compell me to study.

I miss the way you keep reminding me its lunch time.

I miss the way you laugh at my stupidity.

I miss the way you feel possessive and make me feel you are mine.

I miss the way you can keep talking to me about anything on earth and I dont get bored.

I miss the way you listen to my girly gossip without complaining or making me feel weird. 

I miss the way you always try to keep me happy .

I miss the way you make me believe in us.

I miss the way you say you love me.

I miss the way you pamper me ,the way you make me feel I am the most special person.

I miss the way you make things right when everything is wrong.

On the whole I miss my life[that's you].

Best man of my life

Initially I was thinking to write about the best men in my life but then I realised let me just start with the best man of my life to whom I owe  everything absolutely everything.He's the hero of my life my abbu.There are like more than a million reasons why I love him so much and respect him more than that.The first thing I appreciate about him is he gave us a new life when he didn't have any ray of hope to live.Its never easy to live when you dont have anyone to share your emotions with in other words your life becomes a day to day struggle then.I wonder how you could over come this phase of life and hats off to you that you brought us up without ever making us feel a part of our life was missing.

                                   I still remember the days when bhaiya used to start crying at nights without telling a reason behind his sorrow.I was too young to realise what was the reason it was you who struggled your level best to make him a normal person again by staying up whole night with an apprehension that he would wake up again.Though you are actually tired after returning home from such a hectic day. I still remember the times when I was sick you 'd stop going to work just cos you know anyone couldn't take proper care of me like you do.I know you had the toughest times in your life when I was about 5-6 and I would ask you silly questions but which were unanswerable or rather not so easy to answer ones.But still you convinced me by some sweet answer but convincing yourself was more difficult.Do you know whats the best part about you?You complete our family.We need no relatives absolutely nobody you are just the pillar of strength which is enough for us.Apart from all this  I love the fact that you never let your proffesional life mix with personal.If ever one of my wishes c'd be granted in life it would be to eliminate all the sorrows in your life.

                                Your love has been pure,selfless and independent all the way.I am sorry for all the times I dint understand,the times I told you " I know what I am doing" [no I can never know that] for the times I was rude,the times I was stubborn and for all the times I hurt you.Abbu I really love you nothing in this world can really describe my love for you not even this note.You ll always be my hero now and forever :)

Emotionless

Yes I am emotionless,cos everytime I acted like I dont care a part of me died inside cos I actually do.

Yes I am emotionless,cos I hid all my tears just cos even if I cant be the reason behind your happiness I shouldn't be the one for your sadness.

Yes I am emotionless,cos everytime we touched I always felt like it was the first time.

Yes I am emotionless,cos even after spending a whole day with you the minute you leave my heart sinks .

Yes I am emotionless,for every time I hurt you I hurt myself more than you could ever imagine.

Yes I am emotionless,cos even when you talk or stare at other girls I cant stand it.

Yes I am emotionless,for making myself loose in every match we play just to make you win.

Yes I am emotionless,cos I wonder if I were ever on your mind cos you are on mine 24/7.

Yes I am emotionless,cos I cant say how much you mean to me though I know I cant survive without you.

Yes I am emotionless,cos everytime I look at you I get the feeling you are the one for me.

Yes I am emotionless,cos everytime I stumbled just to listen the words "Be careful" from you.

Yes I am emotionless,cos I am still crazy to have those I love you more arguements.

Yes I am emotionless,cos everytime we hugged a part of me never felt like leaving you.

Yes I am emotionless,for being sorry though its not always my fault ,cos you are more important than the arguement for me.

Yes I am emotionless cos even now when we kissed ,it drives me quite insane.

Yes I am emotionless cos whenever I see a shooting star ,I cant think about anybody else except you.

Yes I am emotionless cos even when I am close to people who make me happy ,but I cant be happy without you.

Yes I am emotionless for loving you so much with all my heart and soul, though I know its not going to be easy at all.