MIXED EMOTIONS

                                            LUCK FACTOR

Seems like my luck factor is on an upswing these days I feel this especially after my results were out.I got a freaking triple A and I am really happy about it.The first person that stuck my mind as soon as I saw the result was Akhil cos he was the one who said I would get an A for sure.I am glad that I 've people in my life who believe in me more than I do and sometimes thats what keeps you moving on from breaking down.That reminds me of some phrase which somebody special usually keeps telling whenever I feel low or underestimate myself.

"You should believe in YOURSELF just half as much as I believe in YOU".

Its because of this belief of somebody I did well than whatever I expected =)

      The day April 18th was hectic cos I dint know whether be happy about the result or sad cos I would depart from my city in a few moments from then.Moreover how can I forget it was Polo's birthday too that day.

                   

                                 MISUNDERSTANDINGS

Just when I get out of the school after getting to know my grades I see Akki right there.I thought he must be there to drop off the con law book about which he had been telling me since ages but never did it.After all he is a lazy son of gun just like me .We saw each other but never started greeting each other with the random insults which we usually do.I wanted to talk to him real bad cos I havent spoken to him since the day we fought I wanted to clear out things and be like how WE used to be.But BOOOOOOOOOOOOM my inner conscience started screaming "Why are you the one who always have to compromise.Why cant he do it just for once.Ignore him if he doesn't make the effort to make things right" and as usual I listened to it which I dint have to and though I know I was being egoistical moved the hell out of there.I could see the sadness and obliviousness in his face but still I never cared to say a BYE too.Grr why am I so mean.

                               HAPPINESS

Then I reached home informed my dad and brother about the result thingy.Dad was happy and proud for the first time in my life I did n't have to listen to that long lecture which I am usually compelled too.Felt good infact proud about myself and the feeling is pricelss.And as usual my evlish brother started teasing me saying there must prolly be one reason this might have happened perhaps the examiner was blind or it never really happened .Darn why are siblings so freaking annoying all the time?Especially the ELDER ones they are dominating and can never accept their defeat.No offense to any elder sibling in anyone's  family reading this though :P

                              Bye-Bye Toronto

And like we had to we moved on to the air port by 5 20.WE DID The hardest thing about departing from your city is leaving your people behind.I wish I could carry all off my friends in my suit case if I could.But that cant happen so I had to leave after saying good bye to Heen and Aniket.Though its been more than 2 weeks I still miss you Toronto.And all I want right now is get back to my home sweet home =)

Frustrated life

• Lately there have been many complications in my life and the only reason I dont share them with anyone is half of them would not even understand them and the rest half would make fun of them so I dont want to end up making a fool out of myself.
• Seems like misunderstandings with a really good friend are constantly increasing.If we want to fight with someone we can find million reasons to do so but we only need one reason to avoid that fight from breaking the bond.But people change and so does feelings fade away.
• I have noticed that I am losing my patience for the silliest things in the world though I dont care a darn about them.Or rather I am getting more of self centred I hardly know.
• To add to all these I have to pack up my bags and leave tomorrow which means staying away from someone for a complete month I know others might find it silly or stupid or dumb or whatever it is but its really hard for me.
• They say when life gets frustrated go to your happy place but I never found such happy place in my whole life.
• All I want is a place where I can stay with people without any chaos , misunderstandings and maybe the ones who can understand me and stop judging me.
• Sometimes I miss somebody I wish she still existed in my life.I feel how different my life would be then maybe I could share everything with her.Maybe life would not be so complicated then.Maybe I would never feel lonesome like I am feeling today.But then all my thoughts clash down that cant happen that ll never happen this is the way my life is now and its gotto be this way.
• Sometimes I feel people have started taking me for granted .I feel like I am being forgotten.
• At the same time I feel blessed to have few people in my life so God made up a compensation out there by gifting me such people who try to make me happy by the little things they do.They mean a lot to me.
• I know I should stop complaining lately about the things around me and start cherishing every moment of it anyway.
• Never mind I keep getting these attacks and fluctuations in my mind now and then so its not a big deal thats how I convince myself these days.

Hugs

Yeah its all about hugs and yes when I say H-U-G it means a fully whole hearted one not the one armed or half hearted ones.I am sure there will be moments in every one's lives where all you need is a hug.Be it sad be it happiness all of them can be tackled only when you have someone to share them with and the best part about hugs is they can be treasured by  many things left unsaid but felt.When you are overwhelmed with happiness rather than screaming or smiling to yourself hugging someone is the worlds best feeling.Did you ever hug a completely unknown person but never got a strange feeling after that?Yes hug has that tendency to make a completely unknown person give you a friendly touch too.There is no remedy for sadness but no wonder a hug has the best consoling  power.It makes you feel even when you fall or disheartened or sadness someone is always there to take care of you.Its true that when you are sad and someone hugs you that makes you cry more but the best part is  at least you start feeling light-hearted after that.I don't really remember when was my first hug and stuff like that.But the hug which I can never forget would be the one when my brother was leaving to boarding school for the first time.Though he could n't stay their later for some reasons but it was one such moment which made me feel what we mean to each other in spite of the sibling rivalry we have.Sometimes telling someone how much you love them maybe cant exactly give them that contentment but a loving hug can say it all.The hug that a mom gives her child when the baby first opens her eyes,the hug that a friend gives saying everything 'll just be okay,the hug which a dad gives when his heart is filled with pride,the passionate hug from someone special have the capability to melt any one's heart.Some feelings can never be explained enough such is the feeling of a warm and loving hug.A hug will never let you down so feel free and say free hugs all the way.

INDIYEAAH

• Allrite I am freaking out with happiness right now as India won the World Cup after 28 long years.I  always  wanted to treasure this moment and now that its here it bring tears of happiness to my eyes.
• I dont even remember the last time when I was this happy.Thanks India we all love you truely.
• I dont care a darn about the Poonam's commitment or anything else but all I can sense everywhere around is happiness and victory.
• I feel proud to be Indian today.Thanks to the Indian Cricket Team for making billions of hearts happy and filling them with pride I bet nothing in this world can dominate this feeling or take over this.
• I almost lost my voice because of screaming and cheering and I dont even care a darn about it.All I know is I am the happiest soul on this planet right now.
• I wish I could go out and join the people dancing to the beats of Dhol but no I wont do it :P
• My hearty congratulations to all those INDIANS who had been praying and striving for this.This is our moment so lets make the most of it.
• Now thats INDI-YEAH.